Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Well hello!

Hi friends! If you've been following my blog, you'll notice I haven't posted in a couple of weeks. "Why?" you ask. Well, I'll tell you... Being a person that has been single most of my life, I've never understood why engaged people were so flaky. "Just because you're getting married doesn't mean that the rest of your life disappears," I would say to myself. Well now I understand... You still have to work, you have to plan a wedding, you have to get your home ready for another person to join you (in my case), you want to spend every "free" moment with your other half, and meanwhile you want to do things with your friends before you get married. Amidst all of this I'm finding it incredibly difficult to stay motivated in the health field.

You would think that knowing I have to fit into my wedding dress or wanting to look/feel good on my wedding day would be motivation enough... but no, I'm letting my social/stress induced eating get out of hand! Not to mention, the recent addition of orthotics into my life has completely messed with my back, and therefore my exercise routine. You know it's bad when your trainer makes you text and confirm not once, but twice that you'll actually show up and not cancel your appointment... This is extremely disheartening and embarrassing to me, especially since I've always considered myself to be responsible and dependable. Therefore, I feel extremely guilty posting an entry to help motivate others, even though I know it's mainly to motivate myself.

Sorry to go off on that little venting rampage, but in case you can't tell, I'm struggling a bit right now. I'm very much a people pleaser and feel like I'm letting people down left and right!!! AGH!!!

With all that off my chest, my challenge this week is about acceptance of what you can't control and the desire to change what you can control... acceptance of our circumstances, acceptance of our weaknesses, and acceptance of what goes on around us. (Some would argue that there is nothing out of our control, which may have truth, but how many of us are actually mentally to the point that we feel we are in control of everything?) But this is not only about acceptance of things out of our control, this is even more about acceptance of ourselves (knowing where we come from and realizing our self-worth).  Let me explain... So I've gained about 7 lbs these last few weeks and rather than accepting that it has happened and desiring to move past it, I've chosen to get bogged down in the fact that I'm now way behind in my journey, which sets me further and further back.  Rather than accepting the fact that my back has disabled me from keeping an exercise routine, NOT from eating healthy, I allowed my frustration to set in and gave up on both. And most of all, with the combination of these circumstances and "weaknesses", I've lost view of the person that I've worked so hard to become and love. I would wager to say that no person can achieve and maintain weight-loss if they don't think they're worth it.

I'm going to work hard to change my attitude this week, to realize and accept that there are some things beyond our control, but many more things within our control. I'm going to look at each situation with the attitude that every decision I make is MINE and will positively or negatively effect ME. Rather than the phrase "you are what you eat," I like to live by the phrase, "you feel what you eat." If I eat junk, I feel like junk... If I eat healthy, I feel healthy. Simple as that :)

Hopefully, this week will make us aware that we really are more in control of our circumstances than we think we are and we really are worth treating ourselves to good health!


  1. This post is timely for me too Jerusha. I've been on vacation for the past week and I let myself slide with fitness and eating - which made me feel terrible. I am starting anew and remembering who I want to become and why I started this journey in the first place. Good luck to you. And give yourself some slack for a while. Marriage is stressful enough at first without adding more pressure.

  2. Jerusha, You looked absolutely beautiful on Friday. What a wonderful day for you. Congratulations! So glad I got to see you and your new hubby.